Panda

 Today is as boring as every day.  I feel so bored and tired without doing anything. I become truly a panda.

  I have a lot of things to do but I prefer daydreaming all day than doing them. I always say to myself that I have to wait for the right time but that time never comes.

  I can't do anything because of guiltiness.

  I feel like everything I do is wrong, but I don't try to correct anything. I watch Youtube videos all day long to know how to be a better person even though just watching videos makes me a worse person.

  I want to breathe some fresh air , to see friends , to play and forget everything.

  I want to get out.

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